Strength and Song

This week has been a struggle.  I can't put my finger on anything specific, but emotionally, it has been a struggle to stay positive.  I feel dry.  I feel empty.  I can't say I've struggled with depression, but just really have felt blah.  Almost emotionless.  Like I've been going through the motions.  Going to work.  Teaching. Making sure the house is running smoothly.  Doing what has to be done, but doing it without any emotion. And you can tell by the silence on my blog.  Thankfully those feelings have not erupted into any storms here at home, but I don't like this feeling.  I just feel emotionless.  And I don't like that.  I like to feel alive.  I like to feel motivated and energized.  We have our spring break to look forward to and yet, even that is not getting me energized.  I've tried spending time in the Word and it has felt like I'm just going through the motions.  I've tried praying and it feels like the words really barely got past my lips.

And then the questions have started. What's the point?  Where's the meaning in all this?  Where's the joy?  Surely there has got to be more than this for my week?  I want to feel alive.  I want to feel happy.  I want to feel joy!!!

Then out of mere habit I turned my page on my Jesus Calling devotional calendar from Sarah Young and read this:

"TRUST ME AND DON'T BE AFRAID, for I am your Strength and Song.  Think what it means to have Me as your Strength.  I spoke the universe into existence:  My Power is absolutely unlimited!  Human weakness, consecrated to Me, is like a magnet, drawing My Power into your neediness.  However, fear can block the flow of My Strength into you.  Instead of trying to fight your fears, concentrate on trusting Me.  When you relate to Me in confident trust, there is no limit to how much I can strengthen you.

Remember that I am also your Song.  I want you to share MY JOY, living in conscious awareness of My Presence.  Rejoice as we journey together toward heaven; join Me in singing My Song.  Isaiah 12:2-3; Psalm 21:6"

I don't know necessarily how to get out of this dry spell I am in a the moment, but I DO know that my song - my joy - will come from God.  And focusing on Him is going to get me moving.  So that's what I will do.  I will not concentrate on my own fears, I will instead, try to focus on God and His Strength.  I will try to draw my joy from all He has for me.  I will put the music on and let the words speak to my heart.  I will allow God's praise to sink down to the very bottom of my day and focus on that.  I will listen to Him speaking to me today and seek my joy from that, rather than from the happenings around me.  I will draw my joy, my strength from the One who is the ultimate Strong One.  The giver of TRUE JOY!